Buy a philosophy. The one that works for you the best! Understand it & identify yourself with it.
Then choose a part of your past that can fit in it. Doesn’t have to be a snug fit! Just align them using key moments of past reality against answers from your philosophy. Stick to it till you feel the signs of your philosophy infiltrating your reality. Soon you will feel like you have answers to that part of the past, its present and its future through this philosophy.
Stop, now turn it around! (After all, it’s just philosophy).
Look at it like this, you found a philosophy and attached your past to it, but now your past has a philosophy attached to it. Use it, when needed.
For now, buy another philosophy… for another part of your past.